Again and Again

My heart is breaking over you
My loss for you so great
Your eyes burn fire holes inside me
And I hang my head in shame
Again and again.

My appolgies ricochette off of the
Hard, cold shell you’ve build between us
Hitting me in the face over and over
And nowhere near touching you.

Is it my deciet or your anger
That frightens me to tears
Who did more harm? Me hurting you
Or you throwing that hurt into my face
Again and again.

I can’t fix it anymore
Now I guess it’s up to you
Is our friendship worth working on to you?
I ask myself.
I cry to myself.
Again and again.

06/30/00